Sunday, March 2, 2014

THE MIRROR IN THE QUEER EXPERIENCE

The mirror, oval, hangs on a gilt frame, gilded. The mirror reduplicates being and precipitates becoming. The reflection that is reflected is reflected on by the reflector as reflecting a reflection of a reflection, a facsimile of a putative metaphysical that is indiscernible. Shafts of perception refract in the retina and consciousness as phenomena reflect and (re) configure in the aegis, things that were hitherto unperceived and negated but present.

It is not just a simple projection of self into a (pro) jected space of agreeableness. Nor is being disengaged from the reflection. But the perceiving subject's being is cleft and severed through a willful negation. What is seen is really what there is but through a leap of faith the 'is' becomes 'should be'. And the shadow self, the unrepresentable real, which is experienced but inarticulate recedes indistinctly into a primeval state of non being where it reposes among the constantly revivifying black holes of existentiality, manifesting itself in epiphanies that are momentarily glimpsed.

The structuration of the symbolic repudiates the real but the real informs the symbolic. The real is represented in experience both through a lacunae of its intrinsic unrepresentability and a need to symbiotically cleave to it. In the interstices of both these possibilities exists the queer apotheosis, glimpsed vertiginously as the opalescent light of the penumbra confers a patina of simultaneal diminution and expansiveness. The queer experience belongs neither to the symbolic nor the imaginary because their constructivity disallows variegation though it constructs it as its telos through erasure. The real, though equally constructed, contains the imaginary, the symbolic and itself because it betokens areas of experience and knowledge that are unknowable, that are both non ontological yet capable of being configured from nothingness.

The real is really liberating because it is a space where pre determined compartments collapse and attenuate. The queer glimpse in the mirror's eldritch depths demonstrates both the absurdity and limits of the symbolic and the unknowability of the real. Misperception is replaced by the unperceivable but it is in the unperceivable that the queer transcendence lies. In the shadow play of reduplications, in the room of mirrors where the symbolic disaggregates lies the real whose unglimpsed nature reveals the limits of the symbolic. The fathomability of the real remains indeterminate but what is unaltered is the protean ness of experience. The real must not be consigned and cast off as unknowable and therefore unworthy of exegesis. On the contrary the real must be traversed imaginatively to both become and glimpse a more nebulous being. The nature of such a being is its unclassifiability. Meanwhile there is the self and the mirror. In their mind games and metamorphoses of perception lies the ungraspable. Either the self loses itself in rapt contemplation of this cycle or it peregrinates this closed circularity to get beyond the specular. The mirror is both mediator and facilitator. What matters is the use we put it to.

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